Sometimes a little direct acknowledgement wouldn’t hurt. I’m beginning to feel how she must have felt when he didn’t want to put anything public up.
Lying here in bed feeling like I just got whored. First real chance to spend some time with Jeanine and she doesn’t even stay the entire night. Feeling used and abandoned…
Too much on my hands….too little with her. I admire her fiercely for her will and drive to push herself and make a future. I just need some now.
Feeling drained, low energy, tired, and just plain angry that I have to do all of this myself. My ex was always a selfish person….and having her here wouldn’t have made any difference…but man is this job difficult. Never enough time with the boys, always feeling guilty, and yet I push on and try my hardest to give them what they need.
39 minutes doesn’t cut it. I need some real time.
I just don’t see enough of her. It drives me crazy. Few overnights, limited time, I’m going crazy.
Two years ago I did something out of character for me. I figured if I didn’t I would regret it forever….and I made the right one. I’ve never regretted my choice….and I found something I wasn’t looking for. I found love…and more. Thank you J….so very very much.
Drained and down
Dwelling on something that shouldn’t take this much attention. It’s bothering me though and I don’t know how to handle it. I guess the best way is to be up front and direct about it. But I don’t want to question my faith.
What would *you* do?